Monday, March 9, 2015

Worry or Worship? You choose!

In my first blog I wrote about having a dream of owning a business. Guess what? No, not what you're thinking! I didn't miraculous wake up and have business; although, that would be NICE! I took a huge step in making my dream a reality today. Let's rewind a little bit.... A week or so ago, I felt the spirit prompting me to ask my leadership about going part-time. I kept trying to talk myself out of it. I kept thinking, maybe it's just me. Maybe it's NOT from God. It just kept resurfacing until I finally decided to go for it. I marched into my leads office and said, "I've been thinking". She said, "Uh-oh, you get in trouble when you think." I laughed and then said, "I've been thinking about going part-time. What do you think about that?" In hindsight, I know God was speaking through me. There's no way I would've had the courage to march into her office and make a request like that! Fast forward... When I got back to my desk, my human nature kicked in. My mind was racing, what now? What if I can't pay my bills? What if they fire me b/c I requested part-time? What if they find someone else to do my job while on part-time and no longer need me? What if? What if? What if? As you can imagine, I was a nervous wreck! I'd made up in my mind it was a foolish request. I couldn't possible do work part-time; I have BILLS! I thought to myself, if she doesn't mention it again, I'll pretend the conversation NEVER existed. Ironically, she reached out to me late last week and asked if I'd given it more thought. I was a little surprised but not really; I knew God was up to something. She scheduled a meeting for this morning Monday, March 9th at 9 am. Let me just tell ya, I was a worried last night. I was thinking, what if it doesn't go well? What if they tell me no? What if I don't have the answers? What if I make the wrong decisions? I stopped myself dead in my tracks! I went to the word and wrote down these scriptures:

Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7 NLT

Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 1 Peter 5:7 NLT

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28

It's not God's will for me to worry. He's instructed all of us to cast our cares upon Him. How AWESOME is it to have God carry your burdens? If someone came to you and said, I'm paying all your bills this month, what would you do? How would you feel? In essence, that's what God is saying - give me those things that are wearing you down; I got you! I've already figured this thing out. Stop worrying! He's also saying, there's no such thing as a wrong decision. I cause EVERYTHING to work for your good. Allow that to sink in for a minute.... You can't make a wrong decision. Have you been procrastinating about something you know God has called you to do? Will you take a leap of faith and trust even if it's the wrong decision, He'll turn it for your good? Let this sink in, YOU CAN NOT FAIL!!

Be bold in Christ!

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Dream Big

I'm a girl who loves the Lord, who dreams big, and who often feels like a small fish in a HUGE pond. There are days I'm on top of the world and other days I'm in the valley. Most people think that being a Christian excuses you from struggles; however, that's contrary to scripture. John 16:33 says, "I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

My faith and complete trust in God is often challenged. I'm currently employed full-time at a fortune 500 company; however, I'm so unhappy. See, I have dreams of owning a business. Matthew 21:21 says, Then Jesus told them, “I tell you the truth, if you have faith and don’t doubt, you can do things like this and much more. You can even say to this mountain, ‘May you be lifted up and thrown into the sea,’ and it will happen. God simply asks us to believe. It can be hard to believe in a world of social media. Every corner I turn it seems everyone is doing so much better me. Can you relate? I have to admit, I often compare myself others. I'm sure you can guess where this leaves me - jealous, broken, sad, disappointed, overwhelmed, etc. I'm sure you've heard the quote, "Comparison is the thief of joy." Don't let comparison steal your joy. John 10:10 says, The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. God desires for each of us to live richly; not defeated. 

The purpose of this blog is document my personal journey of becoming everything God created me to be. I will be completely transparent and share my ups and downs. I will dive head first into the word of God and really began to know it for myself. I will document every doubt... every fear. I will also share scriptures to overcome those doubts and fears. For I know, the WORD is my weapon. Just as a soldier wouldn't go to battle without a weapon, neither should we.

I pray that through this blog, I come to know God more and more. Lord, increase my faith! I pray God manifest Himself in our lives like never before! God, show up and show out!

In Faith,
A girl w/a dream